Sunday, May 29, 2011

Memorial Weekend. Sunday Coffee Talk in The Tarnished Halo Studio.

    As I sit down in my studio, at my huge old beat up teacher's desk, I try to conjure up some sort of creative flow.  This morning I went for a walk, what started out as just a stroll turned into walking for miles...and experienced the sunrise for the third time this past week.  Life is messy, and this is the understatement of the year! -Well, the past five years if we are being completely honest with each other.  The hardest part of this messed up world is being able to pick up the pieces of your life and move forward...tough to do when you are still looking for that rug that was pulled out from underneath you!  Alas, here I am, sketching some sort of designs, trying to fight against the feeling that I would like to go and hide under a rock, or move across the country, anything to avoid this pain.  Time is the only thing that can fix pain.  When you are as impatient as I, Time is not your friend.  So, I'm reminded of my love affair with clocks, ironic as it is I have loved clocks for years. I even made a necklace in bronze that is a clock.   So, I did what any rational person would do, I boxed up every single last clock in my home and I'm sending them to my sister, maybe this is my way of trying to make time go faster? Or just start a new...beats me!

However, here I am, and I'm dusting myself off from this whirlwind of a life that is by far not anything like I imagined, and pray that God has something better for me then this, cause I have to tell you...I have to go and LIVE the life I have imagined...and it is so much better than this!  I'm full of plans, actions, hope, creativity, and thank goodness for this broken road of adversity, without it I would be broken like so many people.  Well, let the day begin, and it IS going to be amazing!  So, hang on tight!!